Saturday, May 29, 2010

kau seorang nerd

Assalamualaikum..

sebuah puisi, selepas exam GIT.



Kau Nerd

mengapa kau tak boleh pandang ke hadapan,
melihat kepada benda yang lebih cerah,
tapi kau hanya tahu berangan,
sesal di belakang yang memang telah punah.

kau ingat orang ramai kan peduli,
hatta kau seperti bintang yang menerangi,
orang kan berpura tuk mengambil tahu,
dan hanya kan lagak seperti hantu.

hai Mr. bombastik,
fikiran kau spastik,
otak kau besar tapi hatimu kecik,
ku nak tanya mengapa kau sungguh fanatik?

memang benar, tiada disangkal,
manusia memang ada baik buruk,
tapi kau meluah seperti kau tak berakal,
pada sebelah negatifmu hanyalah perkara teruk.

please stop,
you make my ears hurt,
all the word that you're going to tell me would just be absurd,
that's true, you are a nerd,
but that shouldn't stop you from acting cool on the vert.

yeah,
bila orang mula ambil peduli kau terus memarahi,
lantas kau memang tak menyedari akan cara untuk mendekati,
memanglah kau pandai tapi kau tak berbuat rasional,
dengan perangai macam inikah kau kan jadi (doktor) professional ?

akhir kata,
kau terjun sajalah ke dalam perigi buta,
ambil cangkul, gali kubur sendiri,
baik kau pergi mati,
dari kau menyakiti orang lain lagi.




meluahkan marah,
Anwar Azhari
1140 29052010

Thursday, May 27, 2010

di mana-mana pun boleh menulis, asalkan boleh dibaca

Assalamualaikum..

teknik penulisan yang betul adalah di mana tulisan itu dapat dibaca dan difaham makna.
sekiranya tulisan sendiri pun tidak dapat dibaca, anda gagal.

contoh puisi gagal:


bila tulisan sendiri pun tak dapat dibaca

aku tak dapat menahan,
kendali diri,
diriku telah melupai,
akan kau dewi putri.

Jendela menerang menerusi
tingkap yang melihat permandangan
fikiranku me**(?)**.

aku kan menyedut(?) akan
segala yang dirindui,
tiada s**sa, dia amat
seksi, with a see thr****
bikini(?), with a light(?)
cat eye, aku terus lalai

hilang menerusi segala janji
ku hilang jati, ke*** lelaki
menyo*** diri, dem**,
aku ke(?) sam**** tulis lepas ini.



sebelum mid term exam,
belakang risalah pemberitahuan acara penyampaian ucapan motivasi Idris Tawfiq
27052010



lain kali, sekiranya aku perlu tulis di ruangan yang kecil lagi,
akan aku tulis dengan cantik dan teratur.

jazakallahu khairan kathiran.

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

unwanted thoughts under my glasses 4: when we haven't got the upper hand

Assalamualaikum..

hari ini,
tiada yang menanti,
aku menerjah ke dalam ributan pasir seperti semalam,
lepas hari semalam, aku rasa hilang,
tentu skali kerna fikiran ku tlah melayang.

ha, tapi jangan risau, kerna diri ini,
tiada lagi seperti dulu,
hari dulu aku bezita tapi kini aku goku.
lepas tewas dari perbalahan aku lebih lebih kuat lagi.

kehidupan terganggu, syaitan merasukku,
ku ucap auzubillah dan mereka semua pergi.
ucap selawat, perbanyak istighfar,
mintak ampun sentiasa pada yang maha Esa
jangan lupa, kita hambanya
pengabdian membawa diri ke syurga.

tapi itu, jangan dikata dulu,
cuz my feet is on the steep ground and i cant fall,
the day has been chaos, they drew our prophet on the wall,
all just for sake of nonsense,
a frickkin chaos huh nowadays,

cant punch a black guy cuz its racist,
cant rub a pretty lady cuz its sexist,
cant make fun of jews cuz its anti semetism,
attack a country then its a high treason,
cant burn a temple as an act of hate,
cant beat a faggot as u are intolerate.

but how come when it come to us,
they say that its freedom of speech?

the world dont have respect on us
so i say, now what are you going to do?

Friday, May 21, 2010

Skeetchen: siapa kata kalau exam x de masa untuk masak??

video


Assalamualaikum..

esok exam microb practical..

tapi ak amek masa kejap utk masak..

ENJOY~!

budak kecik yg x ingt ape2

darjah 2 seroja, tahun 1999, Sek Ren Keb Sultan Sulaiman II, Kuala Terengganu.


tahun 1998 umur ak 7 tahun.
masuk skolah SS2 skali dgn engku mohd faiz, yg juga satu tadika dgn ak, tadika yayasan islam.
ak berkenalan dgn saiful azmi, dan syukri syakirin.
lepas dari tuh ak slalu main same2 diorg. saiful, faiz, syukri.

aku slalu bergaduh dgn ali imran. tp at d same time dye nih pn best fren ak. lpas SPM 2 thn lpas ak ad melawat ali kat umah dye kat batu buruk dan ak ad gak mlawat faiz dan sempat bermalam kat umah dye bbrapa hari.

time darjah 1, yg duduk kat seblah ak hasmida x silap ak. ak ngn faiz suke ejek2 hasmida. ak pn dh lupe n x taw nape. ak pernah lukis gamba hasmida dgn ak jalan2 kat tepi pantai mmbelakangkan matahari terbenam. (wahahahhahahahahah...~!!!) korg jgn tanye knape. mmg ak kuat melukis time kecik2 dulu.

ad sorg bdak pandai nih nama dye afiqah (x silap ak). dye slalu dpt no 1 kat kelas time darjah 1. walaupn dlm penyusunan kelas masa darjah 1 ak no 1 n siap kene peluk dgn guru besar Che Ma, (ya, dye peluk ak mcm dye peluk anak dye sendri)..

slain hasmida, ada sofea. comel, sedikit chubby. ali imran suke kat sofea. ak pernah ingt satu konversation ak ngn sofea.

"sofea, nape kuku mu pendek jer?"
"kite potong tiap2 dua hari. kadang2 3 hari. kalu kite nampak panjang je kite potong"
"saya potong tiap minggu. hari jumaat"
"kite hari jumaat pn potong jugak. jumaat, isnin, rabu, kite potong."

**ini konversation budak darjah 2. menarik bukan??

time darjah 3 plak, ak ad usha sorg bdak nih, nama dye katrina. tp dye slalu main2 ngn shafik. faiz pernah sound shafik sbb dye rapat sgt ngn katrina. ak pn pelik n x tahu knape. tp, kitorg smua darjah baru darjah 3 kot.. korg expect ape??

ak rasa klasmate kite ad yg namanya luqman. ketua kelas 3 seroja x silap ak. darjah 3 dulu ad exam PTS. bile buat latihan, faiz dan luqman selalu dpt markah lg tinggi dr ak, jadi, ak x rasa mcm ak bleh lompat kelas. tp ak still study sungguh2. mak ak push ak btol2. time exam tuh plak, ak ingt lg, annisa dok kat dpan ak. dye tunjuk jawapan dye kat ak. ak x tahu nape, tp ak tgk jawapan dye cm myakinkan. so ak tiru la. x sangka ak dpt lompat kelas lpas tuh. thanks annisa.

maka, ak tinggalkn membe2 ak. saiful, faiz, luqman, shafik (kdg2 je ak lepak ngn ko), zal (pn kdg2 gak), haris (ak pernah solat terawikh skali ngn ko kat masjid durian burung), dan camtuh2 je la ak ingt.

bile dh lompat kelas, ak masuk 5 melati skali ngn raja, annisa, n nabila. nini x lompat kelas di atas sbb yg ak dh lupe knape.

skang nih ak still in contact ngn raja. ktorg same2 study kat mesir, tp dye kat U lain. jauh. nabila ak x tahu citer. tp dh add kat fesbuk. annisa plak, ak dh trase makin jauh ngn dye. n akak dye sonia. n cazen dye basyar (x silap ak nama kazen ko basyar kn?)

ak ingt lg masa jadi pengawas dulu, ada borak ngn nabila dan lain2..

nabila ckp:

"eyh, korang nak tahu x? anwar kan.. masa darjah 3 dulu, dye pernah dapat no 33 dalam kelas.."
**lpas tuh anis ad bbrape org yg sama2 bertugas jaga tangga, gelakkn ak gak**
**ak malu je la**

tp mmg ak time darjah 1 smpai 3 dulu x pernah dpt no lg rendah dr 3 kot. kecuali time darjah 3 tuh. sbb mama ayah pergi haji. ak duduk kat umah x blaja. yeayy~

bile dh masuk 5 melati pulak, ceritanya semua jadi lain. ak berkenalan dgn ramai kawan baru. athirah duduk seblah ak. fatanah duduk depan ak. azrin taha duduk seblah fatanah. raja ngan annisa duduk dekat2. khairul anuar duduk blakang ak. dan lain2. kat sini gak ak jmpe zulkhairi.

dan menambah pening lagi, ak masuk choral speaking. ak ngn athirah je kelas melati. budak2 lain kelas seroja. so ak bkenalan skali ngn budak 5 seroja. ramai. yg plg ak still in cntact lg ialah amy, afiah, zulkhairi, farhan, muhaimin, firdaus, dan bnyak lagi. memory choral speaking ialah yg terbaik bg ak.

seronok masuk choral speaking. menang peringkat negeri, n then pergi johor bahru. firdaus kene tangkap time dye nk beli catur magnet. kene tangkap punya pasal, skang nih dye mantap gile main catur. masuk peringkat kebangsaan kat malaysia. medal mmg bnyak la dye kumpul. mmg x sia2 kene tangkap kat plaza angsana tuh. hahahaa.. ak rase x de org yg lupe pasal mnda nih.

ak dh x tahu nk smbung ape lg.. kalau ada masa, ada rezeki, insyaAllah, kite akn berjumpa lagi.
ak mmg dh lupe. raja amalina ngn amy slalu x puas ati ngn ak sbb ak x dpt ingt smua bdak2 ss2. sbb ak sama tahun dgn 91 3 tahun jer. n ak lompat kelas, ak ngn korg setahun je. lpas tuh ak pindah klang. time kat klang dulu, amy yg first yg call ak. mlalui henfon abg ak. ckp kejap jer. ak trase agak malu.

lpas tuh ak jalani hidup ak cm biasa. pergi kajang pulak. masa exam utk masuk mrsm, ak jumpe Amy. x tahu nape, bnyak kali ak jmpe amy lpas tuh..

k la. ak x ingt smua bnda. yg ak ingt tuh, alhamdulillah. kalo korg try ingtkn ak, maybe ak akn ingt balik.

n so on n so far.

jazakallahu khairan kathiran,

Assalamualaikum wbt..

Sunday, May 16, 2010

unwanted thoughts under my glasses 3: its bathatah, not bathotis


Assalamualaikum..

it has been a very frustating day. i have to alter my pathology assignment and redo my parasitology assignment. i can alter, but to do a new topic that is completely a different thing than before? give me a break.

luckily, i got great friends to support me all the time. thanks to iman, izul, irna, aina atiqah, ili, anis, iylia, ilya, and ayu. you guys are so great! i almost felt lost to this vast defeat. but then, irna pushes me back up and aina quote something wonderful;

"besar lagi ujian, besar lagi nikmatNya"

so with this damn frustration, i figure that i really need to let this go. like, LET GO!! so as usual, as how afiq faiz and i always do, we are going to cook. and the dish for today is mee rebus. yeahh~ awesome!!

to make a mee rebus, you need to have sweet potato. not a potato with a bad circulation, but a sweet potato. so i went to the market and search for it. but i dont know what is sweet potato in arabic is, so i asked.

"ana aiz hagah zai bathotis lakin ahmar wa thowiil, ana ma'arafsyi ismuhu eh.."

"bathatah??"

"..."

but they didn't have it so i went to the other shop and i saw bathatah and so i bought them. later then while i was squeezing myself out from the mama arabs, i saw a malay girl. eh? jibah.

then, i figure something out. people say that you can find beautiful and cute girls anywhere. but if you want to find one with good understanding of her religion, go to the mosque. if you want to find one that is all fun and party, go to a club. and if you want to find one that is a good cook, go to the market??

haha.. jk.



so this is what is my unwanted thoughts under my glasses. till next time.

Friday, May 14, 2010

unwanted thoughts under my glasses 2: big brother is watching you!!

Assalamualaikum..

its a very quiet morning.
usually the beach would be filled with malaysians running here and there.
but it seems that no one wants to jog today.

anyways,
*d4"^, i left my glasses at joker's*
nowadays we could see more graffiti are painted all over the walls and concrete pavements by the beach.
they would say something like:

"would you be pleased if this is your sister?" refer here

this graffiti was meant to be read by the guys. because at first, as in, sejak azali, men were to take care of girls. morover if she is the sister or wife or mom or grandma or anyhthing for that matter.
and so, a guy should be also be responsible for his friend a.k.a. girlfriend that he is currently dating. as for so, suppose if a glimpse of thought sparked from the guy's mind that says. "owh sh*t, i really shouldn't be doing this. honey, lets go home"
then it should be great (i think) that they wont be messing around by the beach no more.

but then, (here is where it gets tricky)
the girls are then so.. hurmm.. i cant find the right english word for GEDIK!!
as the first graffiti didn't work because the girl would still be pleased with the guy dating him, talk funny jokes, hugging by the beach, kissing each other (aww..#$%&) and much else.
and so another graffiti was painted and it says:

"Big Brother is watching You!!"

as this one totally was dedicated to the ladies, cuz then arghhh~ do i really need to explain..

im tired.

kepalakotak had post this thing before.

im gonna eat some breakfast.

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

jealousy bounds temptation from hearing his intuition

Assalamualaikum..

this is part 3. continuation of part 2 which continues from part 1.

start.

my temptation haven't spoke for a while now. while my fear is like long gone. however maybe fear is just being shy. this crap could make me crack up. just before, as how i could remember, my temptation could work well with fear. the fear even support me. but nowadays, its like fear has gone. disappear. thinned.

inawkwardly, my occasionally weird temptation still are bounded by jealousy. the strongest adjectives yet to be discovered by me. its like jealousy had been here forever. its hard for temptation to move on with senses when it comes to making decision. i hate it, that i can't just throw away this jealousy and let my temptation be free.

so now that temptation is bounded by jealousy, eventhough its unclear, but still, its somehow rather awkward that what intuition had spoken remains unheard by this lone temptation. deaf perhaps? while somehow should be, that intuition is the closest to the temptation that are just playing along with no one taking care of.

so basically, how this temptation is going to act now is simple. fear would not drive this temptation away, because in a weigh of jealousy and fear, jealousy surely have the upper hand. on the contrary, intuition's voice keeps getting louder. perhaps someday this temptation would be free of jealousy and follows its intuition.



*x faham kan? thats the point

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

unwanted thoughts under my glasses: bad hair day


Assalamualaikum..

its a beautiful month of May and everything is going on so fine. but i cant figure the infection that i caught. yup, i had been coughing and sneezing a lot. eh wait, no sneezing. just coughing. what trickles me is that i can see no one else is having this complication. its like the disease really had only chose me to be infected. well, there goes 2 day of my lectures.

on the contrary,
all of you that are living by the area of camp saezar may hav notice the shortcut from camp saezar to the college. what great about the short cut is that, u can save 5 minutes of walking, rather if u take the road from the gamaah tram.

plus, there is a small bakery shop that sells croissant and pizza. there are 2 choices of croissant, chocolate or cheese. and a very tasteful pizza indeed. and its so cheap! its just for a geneh rubu'!! and do i need to repeat that they are awesome!! and furthermore to be said that if u r a gurl, how lucky u r cuz u can move from ur old house to be nearer to the bakery shop. yup, that's right. a fren of mine that live there are having a tough time with the landlord. cuz its summer, and so therefore they increase the rent. and so to lower the burden, they are accepting new housemates~! if i were a gurl, i would be this kind of exited when i heard this news.

yeayy for housemates (nazli)!


and im very proud to announce that its my bad hair day. i noticed that pple are looking at me with a weird faces. nope, they wudnt be looking at my eye, they r looking above my eye to my hair. n this is whut they said:

Sitch 1;
Dude I: pehal ngan rambut ko?!!
Dube II: ntah lar..??

Sitch 2;
Me: rambut aku bersepah ker?
Gurl I: haah, bersepah. ko x sikat ker?
Me: x

Sitch 3;
Me: Assalamualaikum prof..
Prof: what happen to your hair??!! why is it all standing up like that? i hate it! all of your appearance is ok, but ur hair, urghhh~ get a comb and comb ur hair nicely!!
Me: ...


well, the reason for this messed up hair is that i just wanna try the out-of-bed look that are so popular in japan and i had heard this quite a few times. what i did is that i place my hair gel before going to sleep and then i went to bed. the next morning, whatever would be, would be. (Que sera sera)

so this is how i look with the out-of-bed style


so i learned,

1. u shud move to a place near to a nice bakery shop
2. never drink tap water
3. use a shortcut to saves time
4. dont do the out-of-bed hairstyle again


EVERYDAY ALSO IS A BAD HAIR DAY~!!

signing out.
you can press the "like" button down here. no harm done =)

Friday, May 7, 2010

selamat hari jadi, ayah


Assalamualaikum..

hari ini, ayahku 61 tahun. beza denganku, 42 tahun, 2 bulan.

terimalah sebuah puisi, untuk ayah.



puisi untuk ayah

ayah,
ayah bagi nama pada saya Anwar Azhari,
sekian itu ayah di sisi saya setiap hari,
ayah didik saya untuk utuh jati diri,
disemat dengan ketat, nilai murni pada diri ini.

ayah telah tunjuk saya erti berjaya,
bukan setakat menguasai jalanan di kotaraya,
tapi dalam perjalanan menuju ke sana,
teruslah mengabdikan diri pada yang Maha Esa,

ayah memberi saya lebih dari yang diperlukan,
lebih tajam dari pisau diasah ku punya fikiran,
maka saya hadapi setiap hari tanpa keraguan,
setiap hari dilihat lebih jelas erti makna kehidupan.

ayah bekerja siang malam tanpa jemu,
tanpa disedari senja telah bertemu,
tapi ayah tak mahu berhenti di situ,
ayah terus berbakti untuk keluargamu.

walau susah tugas yang diamanah,
diserta caci-maki, umpat dan fitnah,
tapi ayah teguh, tiada keluh, tiada resah,
hanya angkat tangan, pohon doa, pohon rahmah.

aku harap ku macam ayah satu hari nanti,
tiada yang lain di hati selain anak dan isteri,
cinta yang tak kan hilang sampai kiamat nanti,
terus kita semua kan menghadap Illahi.

ayah,
puisi ini terhenti kerna kertas ku telah basah,
mungkinkah kerna ku terkenangkan rumah?
untuk melihat lagi wajah mama dan ayah,
moga dipanjangkan umur, kita berjumpa lagi InsyaAllah.


yang berbaju kuning itu ayah saya. baju merah itu, baju ayah saya



Wednesday, May 5, 2010

material dan benda adalah benda atau material yang sama



Assalamualaikum..

*im getting into the usual blog mode.
cuz i got complains in which i wrote 'weird stuff' on my blog,
while i think that i only writes poetry??

maybe poetry is weird.

and still, people would hate me. even if u think that ur d most loved person in the world.
and so, if anyone hates me, then its ok. there's only 1 Taufiq in this world to hate.



*****************************ordinary post mode******************************

mlm smalam, ak g stef, n then ak nmpak mnda nih kat display.

nmpak cm coklat. tp tidak, ia hanya henfon. walaupun W980 ak skang nih can be considered as the coolest design of phone ever invented by mankind, ak still ad nafsu terhadap henfon LG nih.
balik msia nk beli kot. kalo x mahal r. kalo ad yg nk bg lg best. haaha..




n sejak Nini jatuh sakit, aku dh mula rindu utk bgambar. hanya Nini satu-satunya camera yg sudi amek gambar ku di tika hening subuh, tgh hari, antara lecture dan praktikal, dlm tandas, atas bumbung, lewat malam, dll & etc. ak akn mnantikn ko Nini. smoga kau sihat hendaknya..

tapi, aku punya interest bkn pada SLR yg besar2 tuh,
tp pada camera Leica yg sgt sexy nih..
dye ad model lg baru, tp ak rasa M9 nih la yg plg stylo..