Saturday, February 27, 2010

take 5


lets take a break for a while.

happy holiday i wish to all of u guys. anywhere u r rite now, hopefully u wud enjoy ur holiday.

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

letih betul


dokter boleh mati time blaja.
serius, medic susah.


Saturday, February 20, 2010

masih di belakang resit gelanggang tanah liat


sengaja menulis ini. tidak ditujukan kepada sesiapa. mendapat inspirasi daripada salah sebuah lagu Gym Class Heroes. mereka ialah sekumpulan penyanyi rentak rap dan hip hop yang agak hebat. merekalah yang memberi inspirasi kepada saya untuk menulis puisi pada awalnya. semalam saya terngiang kembali lagu mereka dan hasilnya, ialah sebuah penulisan di belakang resit gelanggang tanah liat.

Hey there, I've been longing
to meet you again or at least
I'm dying to call you where
in the night, it would be you and
me, talking on the phone and having
absolutely no worries of whatsoever
and more enlightens me is
when we are not even talking on the
phone. we would just be silent to
each other, but still each breath
you took can be heard on my ear.
Funny how we can still be on the
phone while neither of us are talking.
Then i heard u humming. My god,
I would jump off the building or
cut of my wrist just to hear that
hum again. How lovely.
But now, is all the feel has gone?
ur not answering to my call or reply
my text anymore. i guess it just
suggest that you had been moving on
now. i understand my dear, its just
too hard for us to be together. u may
had move on, but i still gonna wait.
because i believe, our love, is pure.

yeah.. yeah.. yada2.. bunyi jiwang and all that.. but WTH, this is Tept's Lame Poetry.
and this stuff up here dont even rhyme.. so what? i dunnoe.. i wrote this while taking a break from pathology. its a good thing that none of the IHD or CVS or thrombophlebitis make theirseleves into this awful writing.

oh yeah, and more, if u feel like im contradicting myself from my previous post, let me remind u again that this stuff was done on purpose. and not under intention of love nor lust.

Thursday, February 18, 2010

nenek tak percaya?!


always has been that sometimes i felt confused of myself. upon that, i would ask questions, and of course i expect an answer. so as how it has been, i never had a relationship before. and it puzzles me on how could a man and women fell in love with each other. as more i ponder, my thoughts grew more and more. beyond else, i seek the meaning of love itself. and as how thick oxford's dictionary are, or how comprehensive wikipedia and google are, i still cant find the right answer. and so i seek for it, never to hope that an anonymous individual would lend me a hand, as to seek together with her. anyway, by me being single since ever, i feel rather awkward. as in, how come that my friend here have a girl or perhaps a woman, that loves him so much that they ask each others as in how they're doing, give some piece of advice and spiritual motivation, and all those lovely thing.

so one day, in my room at kajang, i opens up my window and said to myself. i would find myself a girlfriend. turns out, it is so much harder than i thought. of course, knowing the theory of flirting and the basic psychology of human thinking should have help me in making the search easier. it turns out that, i would always back off that the moment in which there's one more step to be make. so, in turn, i back off and none was left for me.

and time goes by, one by one they come and goes. as if they are plasticine. it'll stick for a while, and just for a while. sigh.. upon being relieved by the saying, Laa taqrabbu zina, i always reminds myself that i should always be far from committing sins as coupling would as if somehow, make me and my girlfriend nearer towards making sin. and so, why does it has to be her in the first place? ok, if she love me, then stop. its too early. yeah sure i adore u too but there should be the least of us. if u just want me to call u, text u, date u and all, dear, i must remind u Laa taqrabbu zina. i dont want any part of it and i also dont want u to be part of it.

so there it goes, one by one. like falling stars, so temporary. as if i felt none. and yes, i did felt none. i think that its not yet the time for me to engage in a relationship. its like, hey, im bloody 18 years old, 2nd year medical student. why should i involve in any of this? and so there i go, always alone, never had a relationship.

so sometimes people ask me,

*di masjid, selepas solat sunat selepas maghrib*
50+ year old man: kamu ni dah ada girlfriend ke?
taufiq: hahaha.. saya mane ada pakcik, x pernah ada pun..
50+ year old man: betul kamu x ada? kamu ni biar betol.. x pcaye la.
taufiq: betul pakcik.. saya nak fokus pelajaran dulu, habis medic ni boleh la saya fikir pasal hal2 ni.
50+ year old man: hahaha.. bagus..!

and sometimes they get angry,

*at a comfy, kampong house. drinking tea in the evening*
60+ year old lady: kamu dah ada gepren ke belom?
taufiq: nenek ada cucu sebaya saya ker?
60+ year old lady: ahahahahhaha...!!! x dela.. kamu ni hensem, x kn x de kot. ada x?
taufiq: erm.. x de la nek..
60+ year old lady: APA?! nenek X perCAYA kau nih x de gepren.. orang muda zaman skarang ni mesti ada..!!
taufiq: betul la.. x de.. saya nak belajar dulu betol2.. dah la belajar jauh, ke mesir..
60+ year old lady: ya Allah aduhai.. bagus betullah kamu nih.. susah nak cari orang muda macam kamu ni skarang nih.. (bla3.. bla3.. sangat panjang, memuji sang penulis. pembaca boleh rasa mual)

eh wait, back to the 1st man.

*another day, after solat sunat qabliah isya'*
50+ year old man: cucu pakcik ada nak pergi ke mesir nanti.. pergi ke zekzek.. ke ape name ntah.
taufiq: apa? apa dia pakcik?
50+year old man: dye nak fly ke mesir.. belajar medic, U nyer name ape ntah.. zekzek..
taufiq: owhh.. zaqaziq.
50+year old man: haa..! macamtulah sebutannya. kamu dah sampai sana?
taufiq: belum lagi la pakcik.. hahaha..
50+year old man: owh.. cucu pak cik nih perempuan, nanti kalau kamu ada kenal denagn dia, kamu jagalah dia yer..
taufiq: erm.. insyaAllah pakcik (erkss.. ape maksud pakcik sebenarnya?)
*Allahuakbar Allahuakbar..(iqamah memecah suasana, menyeru jemaah melakukan saf)*

maka, dalam pencarian cinta, apa yang sepatutnya kita cari?

ini jawabnya.

"Ya Allah, Aku pohon cinta Mu ya Allah,
dan cinta orang-orang yang mencintaiMu ya Allah"


Saturday, February 13, 2010



setiap kali ak balik dari clay court shatbi, ak akn dpt resit bayaran penggunaan court.
saiznya hanya 1/9 A4.. kecik saja.. ada 2 cop warna ungu dan sedikit tulisan arab.

Tram Sport Club, Alexandria

Sewa Gelanggang Tenis

5 L.E.

tapi, di belakang kertas resit ini kosong.
maka, aku menulis sesuatu yang aku tidak tahu @ ingat bila ak tulis mnda nih.
sebuah kata,

Don't Rush,
Let time turn
back to spark
a glimpse that
you don't notice before.

It's beautiful.

aku yakin, tentu ada makna dan sebab-musabab disebalik penulisan parasedar ini.

Saturday, February 6, 2010

poetry code crack 1- as it is


ok.. here would be something new,
i figure that some of my writings could only be understood by me.
and so, it gets me thinking. y am i even writing this whole craps?

so i think, and think, and think some more and came up with this.

Poetry Code Crack.

where i wud be true to myself as to tell u all whut i actually meant in my writing.
if this doesnt sound fun enough, u may leave my blog. no hard feelings for me.

ok.. here it goes.
i want to start with a simple one. so i pick up AS IT IS. written on june 27th, 2009.

original link- here.

Of the apologize that comes not from the feeling of guilt,
but from the fear of something upcoming would trouble theirselves.

i came up with this sentence before we all are ought to take the final exam for the 2nd semester last year. cuz i heard pple saying, "omg, i had done smthing wrong to my friend. if i didnt apologize, i might not be able to answer the questions in d exam.."
ok. its a nice thing to think that way, but eitherway, u'll pass if u study. the feel of guilt might come from fear of something upcoming would somehow troubles u, but is any matter of fact, suppose, that when we are in debt of someone's forgiveness, we ought to beg for it. as in the name of friendship, brotherhood, sisterhood, ukhwah, and on our base of Islam.

u see, the guilt should come from the fear of Allah SWT that created us. and upon what held beyond His hellfire that we are bound to have (nauzubillah) if we are not forgiven by some other human being. as for so, u would be plead a sincere apology to ur friend or foe. remember, that we should always be ready to forgive others if others does smthin bad back at u. learn to forgive.

forgive ur friend for making u uncomfortable.
forgive a companion that punches u in d face.
forgive a mate that laughs at u seeing u fell from the staircase or the tram.
forgive ur friends that mistakenly took smthing from u without permission.
forgive ur neighbour who makes noises all night while ur trying to study or sleep.
forgive ur parents for scolding u, for not taking u to a better school, for not giving whut u want, for the dress that u didnt get or anything. thay had done so much for u.
forgive ur brothers.
forgive ur sisters.

forgive, and forget.

*sigh. i just explain why the heck i wrote that phrase in the first place. turns out that its pretty much to say about it. i'll stop here.

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

ingat dan semat


sesiapa yang sedang berjalan-jalan dalam alam blogosfera, boleh melayani lagu ini.

aku suka lagu ini kerana aku suka makan budu.

mak aku juga suka makan budu. walaupun kami tiada kaitan dengan Kelantan Darul Naim.

sayang mama.