Wednesday, October 28, 2009

kuat bagus juga


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i cant believe that i wrote this.

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

no coffee for me, thanks.


few years ago,
i recon that something wrong is goin on with my heart.

i didnt eat,
then my heart would go tachy.

i didnt drink,
then my heart would go tachy.

i didnt sleep,
then my heart would go tachy.

i'm doin nothing,
then my heart would go tachy.

i'm running,
then my heart would go tachy.

i'm constantly breathing,
but my goes tachy.

i'm breathing fresh air,
but tachy got in to me.


i then made an experiment.

"would looking at my crush@ admirer make my heart goes tachycardia?"

i then search for her.

by the first gaze,
i can feel it. owh wait, thats not it. thats actually my heart which skips a beat.

so i find some other who i admire,
hurrmm, nope, tachy is just isnt there.

then i search for the 1st admirer once again,
ahh..!! thats it, tachycardia.

but i wasnt satisfied with the results.

but then i checked the results again. how? i tried to look at the admire's face again and again.

tachycardia wasnt there. so i decide that i wouldnt admire her anymore, maybe cuz my heart wouldnt go tachy anymore with her. so i stop admiring.

so there was my heart, goes tachycardia for no reasons. i thought its because my heart that tends to a certain feeling. but i guess that it wasnt strong enough.

so a few months ago, i check with a doctor, a cardiologist.

he diagnosed me and found out that i got AV nodal re-entry tachycardia.

never heard of it? search them by google.

by this, i'm a cardiac patient. i am vulnerable to any other cardiac disease now.
this tachy is not killing, but just disturbing. i rejected any kind of medication. and im also on a caffein free diet. a little bit of caffeine and this thing would burst. my heart cud beat at 240+ per minute. but i cant die like this.

if im killed by having a heart attack, most probly i wud end up at the mortuary to be post-mortemed before being buried.

but let me die in a normal way, in a way which a post-mortem wudnt be required. any way, in which post mortem wud not be required. yes its true that we all die, but just let it not be that my chest is being split apart or my brain removed.

im on a caffeine free diet. so no coffee for me, thanks.

having a sip of coffee feels like heaven. coffee is just almost wonderful if ur obliged not to drink them.

anything that or prohibited for, would be fun.

a wise friend of mine said that God took a favor from you in return, He reply with some other that you wud favors you more.

i believed.

Saturday, October 24, 2009

noisy international calls


its 12 days from d last i saw my mom.

i really miss her.

yeah. i'm a son who misses his mom. a LOT.


and because today is 25th October,

its Jasmin Munchar Elias 18th birthday..


dunno much to say, just happy birthday, of a wish from miles away.

may u be chosen to UM and succeed in Med School to be a great Dr.

Friday, October 23, 2009

you're the lover of a 3rd voice

Assalamualaikum.. from inspiration by Amin Hudi

You're the lover of a 3rd voice

i cant figure why she cant reply it,
immediately after truly said that i missed her,
its not like she would go ran out of credit,
as she is one of the none getting richer.

then it would just be me and the blankey without having the ability of the capability to turn mr sparky up and turn the room warmed up.
end up its just me being lonely shaking up the freezes chills zero that should have killed me moments ago.
braced it to find some words from your heart that cud be the ignition to warmed up my heart but all the nonsense just caught back to me.

as she is the O lover of every 3rd voice
that speaks from anyone with a smart ass,
but why do you have to act as cold as ice,
cant we had just a little bit of compromise?

so i scrunched up,
get the chill out,
move a little bit to warm up,
but chill still got my butt,
i got fu**ed up,
but what the heck,
its not i'm in the end of the world to feel sad.

what i'm telling you here is that i'm being sincere,
that my voice came from the heart like an art,
but all this talk is like you're deaf to hear,
so i lie down on my back and just like that.

i hold on and flipped my phone,
waiting for you to beat my tone,
but could it be that the feel has gone?
and so stand me here all alone.

of the voices from the 3rd that kept u by close to all the chemical but all was just zero to anything that is worse than anything that has been given to you.
let the lying speaks of the truth that cant be handled, not long after a couple of weeks that a couple has been where a crack appears and the 3rd has speak.
they're numb by their uno and dos as nothing is compared to the voices that speaks for me, sincerely when i gave a huge wave of words that i admit.

Anwar Azhari
5 PM GMT +2 23/10/2009

Sunday, October 18, 2009

kau kajang, dia camp caesar. jua takut dan geli



Pakcik 1: eh, kamu ada ikut bapak kamu pergi potong mayat??
Anwar: haah. ad ikut, kadang2.
Pakcik 1: eiii, kamu tak takut ker?
Anwar: ermm.. x de pn.
Pakcik 1: kamu potong macam mana ya? ada macam kerat 18 ke?
Anwar: eh x de la. macam biasa2 saja. buka dada pakai pisau dan tengoklah. kadang2 buka kepala.
Pakcik 1: eii.. lepas itu kamu nampak la semua benda?
Anwar: haah. nampak la.
Pakcik 1: eii.. kalau pakcik tengok mayat je dah x boleh.. eii.. berani btul kamu.

"pakcik 2 datang duduk berdekatan"

Pakcik 1: eh, dia nih dah potong mayat. hati2 kau, nanti dia boleh potong kau.
Pakcik 2: haa..? kamu potong mayat? bedah siasat la ya?
Anwar: haah.
Pakcik 1: kau jangan main2 dengan dia, silap2 dia kerat 18 kat kita.
Anwar: hahaha.. x de la. saya biasa2 saja.
Pakcik 1: kamu ada keluarkan apa2 jantung orang ke?
Anwar: haah. ada jugak. tengok utk tengok la nape org tuh mati. kadang2 keluarkan otak.
Pakcik 2: kamu x takut ker?
Anwar: x de pn.. kot.
Pakcik 2: dia ni pakai "ilmu" nih. boleh tak takut kamu ya?? ish2..


setelah disari kata
Anwar: pakcik, nak air 12 botol..
Ammu: jap ek. ak masukkn dlm kotak. kamu Malaysia kan? belajar perubatan? tahun berapa?
Anwar: haah.. belajar medic. tahun 2.
Ammu: haaa.. sape nama kamu?
Anwar: Anwar. ko lak?
Ammu: saya g***e. eh, ko blaja medic ad x tengok org mati?
Anwar: ada.
Ammu: ada belah mayat ke? faham kan? belah mayat?
Anwar: haah. ada.
Ammu: eeiii... kamu potong mayat?!
Anwar: haah. ak potong mayat.
Ammu: eiii... camne tuh.. susah nyer.. ko buat kat ner? kat sini?
Anwar: x de la. kat sini x de buat lagi. ak wat kat malaysia.
Ammu: owhh.. eii.. ko ada nampak semua la? alb, riun, wa kibdah? (jantung, paru dan hati?)
Anwar: haah. ada tengok semua tuh.
Ammu: lepas tuh semua isi perut tuh kamu keluarkan ker?
Anwar: haa. keluarkan jugak.
Ammu: isi perut semua ko keluarkan??!!
Anwar: haah.. ada la. betul..
Ammu: eiiii.. kalau ak, x leh r.. eiii.. susah jer.. kamu macamna bila kamu tengok mayat tuh? ada takut ke biasa2 er?
Anwar: ermm.. biasa je kot.
Ammu: eeiissshhh.. kalo ak x leh la.. ko badan ko kecik je. camne ko potong semua tuh?
Anwar: potong je la. x de masalah.
Ammu: x de masalah yea? haha.. eiii.. ak x leh dowhh..

Thursday, October 15, 2009

Saturday, October 10, 2009

solah.. ya anwar, solah. solah ya azhari.


dont have much to say.
the 3rd part of SOAA-JME is still not finished.

so i got these instead.

watch it.

be like BADAR.

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

enjoying all 4 seasons in 1 week!!


i had a great time at Melbourne, Australia.